I think I'm in the middle of a winter slump. Its cold. School holidays are still weeks away. I can feel myself sliding.
The other day I was talking to a friend, who asked me how I was feeling. She had said that something I had told her made her feel sad. She asked me how I felt. Could I answer? NO. Because I am still emotionally stunted and never tell anyone how I feel.
What I wanted to blurt out was how unhappy I feel at the moment.
I just couldn't say the words. I don't know if it was because I didn't want to admit it, or whether it was just too hard to say the words out loud. It's much easier just to type them 'out loud' to you guys.
Now, I don't think there is any huge reason to worry. I don't think I am depressed. Things aren't dire. I just feel tired and ... I don't know what...
In need of a holiday perhaps???
I did find a bit of an antidote to my slump yesterday when I went to preschool drop off. For the first time EVER, both my twins were invited to a birthday party!!! What a lovely moment. I nearly cried.
They have been to parties before, but this is the first ever preschool party invite for either of them. I am so thankful to the birthday girl and her Mum for including Ashlea. One of the things that makes me sad about Ashlea's disabilities is the idea that she may not have close friendships and get invited to birthday parties, so it was a very special moment to receive Ashlea's first party invitation.
Our first party invite. Can I include this as an 'official' milestone??? It has certainly lifted my mood I can tell you!!
Do you have any other tips to help me through my winter slump? I did some furniture re-arranging yesterday. I don't know why, but that always seems to help too!!