Sunday, March 6, 2011
The forgotten child
I found this video the other day of Audrey singing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. She must have been around 2 years old. How cute is she?
When I watched the video it struck me that I really missed out on so much of her babyhood. It was like I was seeing her for the first time. Seeing her cuteness, her babyness.
I feel like I missed all that.
I was so caught up worrying about Ashlea that I missed out on so many little moments with Audrey.
I was talking to a school mum the other day and while we were chatting her 1 year old (also with blue eyes and blond hair) was falling asleep in her arms. It really struck me that Audrey never got to do that. Such a normal part of babyhood to fall asleep in your mother's arms. Yet Audrey always had to sleep either in her cot - or in the pram if we were out - because I was busy wrestling with Ashlea (and yes that it was it felt like at the time).
Do you feel that there is a particular child in your family that is the one that misses out?
Audrey is so unassuming. She doesn't demand anything. She is quiet and obedient. Willing to please.
She is sandwiched in between Emma and Ashlea who are both high maintenance. Emma is very in your face and demanding of attention. Ashlea is Ashlea. Audrey is in the middle.
How do you manage the needs of all your children? And how do you manage the Mummy Guilt that goes with trying to manage the needs of all your children???