Everyone keeps telling me how exciting it is that I am a good kidney match for Ashlea.
Don't get me wrong - it is a huge relief to know we have this option and I am happy that I can give Ashlea this gift - but I don't feel excited about it.
Mostly I just feel stressed.
I can't believe we actually have to go through this.
We've got to actually LIVE it.
It's interesting seeing people's reactions. Some people still fail to grasp how big this is.
It's BIG big.
I can barely grasp how big it is and I'm in the middle of it.
It's one thing to have in the back of your mind that one day your child will need a kidney transplant, but when it becomes a reality that it is happening now it is still a lot to take in.
It still shocks me that this is happening to us. Isn't this what happens to other people???
How did we get here?