Is it really only 3 sleeps until my baby has that big scary operation???
It's a very strange time at the moment. We are still leading our ordinary, everyday lives - making lunches, doing the school run, buying groceries etc and yet we have this huge operation looming in just 3 days. It's becoming harder and harder to do the every day things - in a way I have already mentally shut myself off from those things as I have started to focus in on getting through the transplant.
My mind is well and truly in the 'transplant zone' now.
A few people have asked me how I am feeling in the lead up. I'm afraid I really can't answer that question at the moment. Part of my mental preparation for the transplant has been to disconnect from how I feel about what is happening. I can't feel all the emotions that go with the big scary operation AND get through it in one piece - so how I feel about it will have to wait until later.
For now I'm just trying to take things one day at a time.