I have been wondering if you all have been wondeirng what I think about everything that has happened. If I watched someone else go through all this I'd certainly be wondering what they thought about it all!
So here is what I think.
I think I still can't really believe what has happened and I think it is kind of crazy that all this STUFF has happened to little old us.
In spite of that though I still believe that God is in control. If He really is the God who holds the entire universe in His hands He is also in control of this. He could have prevented Murray from aspirating - but He didn't. He could have prevented Murray from being found for another 10 or 20 minutes - when it would have most likely been too late - but He didn't. He has allowed (chosen even) for this to happen.
Other than that I don't know what to think. I don't know why this has happened. It's one of those unanswerable questions. WHY? I don't know. But I am going to keep trusting the God who is in control of all the events of our lives. As much as I know there are some people who could not believe in God BECAUSE of events like these - I can't NOT believe. I can't imagine getting through something like this without having the hope that comes from being a Christian - without the hope of heaven - and knowing that one day all the suffering of this life will be OVER AND DONE WITH.
Please keep praying for us - for Murray and Ashlea's recoveries and also for Murray and I to have soft hearts to whatever it is that God is doing in our lives. You could also pray for me too as I drive to and from the hospital in my current distracted state - today I ran a red light on the way there and then nearly reversed into someone on the way home. Oops.