I am so thankful for the RPA Newborn Care Nursery.
I am thankful for the doctors and nurses who took such good care of our tiny babies during their stay there.
I am thankful for the special nurses who also went out of their way to look after us as parents.
I am thankful for my high risk obstetrician who limped my pregnancy along for as long as possible but then made the decision to get the girls out while there was still a chance for them to survive.
I am thankful for everyone - from the most senior doctor right down to the lowliest cleaner - my girls would not be alive without all of the hard work and dedication of all the staff there.
Mostly I am thankful to the NICU for the life altering change in perspective that came from watching my girls fight for their lives. Don't get me wrong - it's not something I'd recommend - but watching a tiny 500gm baby fight for their life is both terrifying and awe inspiring. The NICU provided a clarifying moment in my life - a moment where it was so clear that God is the one who is in control - not me. There was nothing I could humanly do to add even a minute to my girls lives - although if it were possible I would have done anything to accomplish that! All I could do was pray. It wasn't even praying really - more like begging. Please God just let me keep them. I am beyond thankful that He did.
There is a verse in the bible that I like to take totally out of context and apply to Ashlea and I. In the original verion Paul is talking about his friend who was sick and nearly died - but I like to substitute mine and Ashlea's names so that it reads like this:
Indeed she was ill, and almost died. But God had mercy on her, and not on her only but also on me, to spare me sorrow upon sorrow. (Phil 2:27)
I know that the original writer did not have Ashlea and I in mind when he wrote but that verse sums up how I feel about our NICU journey. Ashlea was ill. She almost died. But God had mercy on her - and not only on her, but also on ME - to spare me sorrow upon sorrow.
For that I am thankful beyond words.
Here is a video of little Ashlea's NICU Journey:
Gonna sneak this in for Wordless Wednesday - even though it's neither wordless or Wednesday - sorry Trish!