Usually I don't do New Years Resolutions but these two things have been on my mind for awhile. I'm not going to make them resolutions because that will just set me up for failure in the first week - instead I am making them my goals for the year.
1. I need to read the bible more.
I have gotten slack in my bible reading habits - partly because I have been having a bit of a stand off with God over the events of 2012. I am angry that I have been left with the consequences of other peoples actions. Life has gone on relatively unchanged for all the people involved in Murray's brain injury - even Murray himself doesn't have full insight into his injury. I have been left to pick up the pieces. Having a stand off with God is pointless though. It's like cutting off your own oxygen supply. Praying and reading the bible is a lifeline - one that I need to grab hold of firmly - without it I'll drown. Without it I have been drowning. Holding on tightly to God is my only hope for getting through this.
2. I need to worry less.
Many of you will know from previous New Years posts that I am not a fan of New Year as it usually fills me with worry about what might happen in the coming 12 months (see here for 2012s worries, here for 2011 and here for 2010 if you need proof!). Seriously though - no amount of worrying about what might happen could have prepared me for what actually happened after Ashlea's transplant so this year I'm not going to bother with the worrying!
Truth be told ANYTHING could happen! To any of us! At any time! Worrying that bad things might happen doesn't prevent them from happening - so as much as possible I'm going to just take each day as it comes - and try to keep my head above water - while clinging to my lifeline.
Anyone else doing resolutions?